maybe its all a dream

maybe its just all a dream.
just my one sided thoughts.

never thought that you were selfish. i only wanted more time with you.
i know i did not spend lots with you in the past.
least i'm trying to change things now and make it better.

sick. not feeling the best i could be.
yet, instead of feeling your care, i feel your leng ku.

never wanted to quarrel with you. whyy did you think so.
back together. so?
you never put the past behind.
no matter how much i've done.
did you see them?

when will you learn to care more?
i'm your dar.
not just anyone. i'm your dar.
if wanting you to pei me more. is my fault. then i'm sorry.
i'll never ever be like that again.
i'm alright with back to zi ji kang.
since when was i not.
i'll be fine.
like always.

just. today. i'm sick. tired. and heartbroken.